She is an adoptive daughter, she knew unconditional love, and the fear of abandonment. She faced the darkness and was reborn in the light that transformed her into her new project: ‘Dancing with Emotions’… She is Vanesa Leiro, ‘La Leiro’, for those who know only her artistic part, the singer of ‘Falling in love USA’ .
In an exclusive interview, where she opens her heart, Vanesa reveals the details of her absence when she had to leave the show to leave the country and leave her son for 3 months. She talks about the love of her teachers: her ex-partners. The truth of her and the rebirth of her in the first person, below.
-We see you every night in ‘Enamorándonos’ singing, you are also an actress, a dancer, you started in this career from a very young age in Argentina and you developed and ended up in the United States. How did you get to the show?
Vanesa Leiro: It was like the first encounter again with this artistic part of me… I left Argentina, more or less in 2013, I spent several years without being in contact with art, I lived for a while in New York, where I had to work everything, like all immigrants, and it had really made me feel quite foreign to what music, acting and dancing were.
By chance I received, through my ex-partner, that I have to thank him, because thanks to him I also found out about this program, and it was what opened the doors for me in many aspects and was of great growth, so he, at that time He told me about the audition, he told me he was looking for singers, musicians. I remember that I left so angry, in fact, I called my mom and said: “Mommy, it was the worst audition I’ve ever done in my life.” I was like a total whirlwind, like very intense, so I was like I don’t know, I hadn’t felt that I had given everything I could give. Within a week they told me that I was the singer of the show, I didn’t expect it, but it really was something that I think was meant to be, so after that I started to enjoy it, I started to relax, and I started to give everything to the show. in these four years.
–What do you enjoy most about ‘Falling in love’?
Vanesa Leiro: Beyond music, it is the teaching that it gives me every day in living together, meeting the people that I meet every day, but every day from a different perspective, having realized that they have been part of moments very key in my life, perhaps more than the family, because I am really alone here with my son, so in the day to day, in the tangible, in contact, are the relationships. What I enjoyed the most, and still enjoy, is being in contact with people, not only the band, but the team, a hug, a moment before the show, where I’m seeing someone and you can tell them something or someone can tell you something and it changes your day. I think that’s super important.
-We see you singing, and we fall in love with your voice, but who is Vanesa? what’s behind that voice?
Vanesa Leiro: I’m going from the point where I’m still a girl, in many aspects of my life, obviously it has been a hard process growing up for me, it has been maturing, I imagine that for everyone it’s hard, it’s tenacious, I I see it in my son who is already going through another stage and it’s like he says: Where is the other part when he went to Day care and didn’t have to study?, as when one evolves, he grows, there are small layers of one who leave as a soldier.
Growing up is painful at times, Vanesa has been healing many things during this time, I am a person who really dedicates time to myself, it was what I did not do before, perhaps due to a lack of awareness or a lack of internal work, it really was like work and rest when you die, all that idea, like a shovel, a shovel, a shovel, until life itself came to me as if to say, slow it down a bit… Sometimes life, through illnesses or situations told me, stop , lower it a bit and really consider what is really valuable to you? I mean, what things are valuable to you in your life?…
I am a very empathic person, very loving, very deep, super deep, and every time I get more and more there, but I think that is really where I feel at peace, that is where I feel most authentic, that is the way in which I really want to contribute to the world, from an honesty, from being and this to adhere it and with a very positive connotation, but ‘Falling in love’ brought out the good and the bad that I had inside, it was the stage where I was able to bring out the good and the bad. bad every time I got on and sang a song, where you had to put anger, the anger came out, I took the opportunity to drain a lot there with everything that was happening to me, when there was a very emotional song it is like the channel in which I can interpret emotions so yes, Vanessa is a host of things, like everyone else.
-You talk about that at this moment you were able to find a balance or the closest thing to balance, what was it that made you click?
Vanesa Leiro: It was realizing that I needed a change, that suddenly I had not stopped, I think that in my life I had never paused, since I arrived in this country, which is quite a quantum leap in my history, and that of everyone, I spent almost 9 years like this, and I know that people can spend a lifetime, and they don’t realize it… There came a point when I was so overwhelmed with so much information, with so many things, I saw so much imbalance in my life, in many areas, conflicts that of course came internally with me, but manifested themselves outside, what is inside is outside, a dark moment, my breath was extremely stuck, and the only way was yes, the show, dancing, singing, putting on outfits, invent…
There was still a void, there was something that I did not quite understand, and I have realized that it really was that, it was as if I had not given myself the pause to listen to myself, to attend to myself, to nurture myself, to really know Who is Vanesa at that time, at that time? Who am she?… And when I said, I want a change, life, she made me: “Ok, do you want a change?” … I literally had to leave the show, I had to leave the country, I had to leave everything, and I had to go to Europe for 3 months, from one moment to the next. Life is really very precise and more so with what we ask for, the power of the word, the intention of the word is very strong, and many times we want changes, but when they come, we cling to where we are, we don’t want to let go of control , that is what obviously makes resistance what slows us down, what makes us tired and that is what happened to me then.
The first step was, like I want a change, and from there to the person I am now, that this took me and I am at the beginning, in the ‘baby steps’, but it made me go inside, it made me work internally, I It made me greatly reevaluate the concept of value, of what is value to me, of what I am worth, also of setting limits, of really changing, my habits completely, my way of dressing, my look, all because it looks so outside too.
-What happened when you ask for that change and life gives it to you and the world turns upside down somehow and you have to run out of the country?
Vanesa Leiro: That was Uranus in Taurus, it was the radical change in my sign… At first there was a lot of resistance on my part, there was a lot of crying, how am I going to leave this country, I’ve been here for almost 9 years, I never left , leaving my son, because I couldn’t take him, leaving my apartment in 2 weeks, having to sell everything and leave it, because I didn’t know when I would return. But, on the other hand, my parents were waiting for me, my family, which is what I really needed in these years, in the sense of belonging to family and home, apart from the fact that I have made my family with My son, I think we need that part a lot… Until the last day, when I got on the plane, until I got there, one physically lands but your mind is still wandering, and it is in all those changes, so fast with 2 weeks, it was very fast.
When I got there, I realized that this change was not just about a legal adjustment, it was about a very strong spiritual retreat for me, about this pause of, ok, now it’s time for you, it’s not time for you, and what I am going to say is strong, but I say it, I honor it because I allowed myself to and I never stopped feeling that I was a bad mother or a good mother, because all those things cross our minds and we have to say them, but it’s like that life told me: “Look, it is not time for you to be a mother now, for you to be there as you always are, and for you to be the artist, who is there all day calling attention and shining, it is time for you to concentrate on getting to know yourself, knowing who you are at this moment, on healing everything you have inside, and not worrying, and on letting go”… And life made me let go of everything, and on letting go of what I can tell you that I found myself myself, I found all those traumas and those fears and insecurities that came from childhood, there was a very big wound with my mother, With my dad I also have a very beautiful story
–You talk about that beautiful story. What do you mean?
Vanesa Leiro: I am adopted, my biological father is in Argentina, my mother is no longer there, they really could not provide at the time and give me everything they considered they could give me in the circumstances in which they were, and here my mother appears and my foster dad at heart. They were the ones who raised me, my adoptive mother was waiting for me for a long time and my biological mother was like such a great act of love, an act of love that only mothers can understand how far a mother’s love goes, unlimited, no I can imagine it, the moms who are here will understand me, and she gave me up for adoption because they really didn’t have it, I think she didn’t have the emotional capacity or the circumstances to give me everything I’ve learned and had with my parents.
All that history has obviously marked me because those things mark us, and my mom always told me the truth, it was always like “do you want to know where you come from? Do you want to look for them? … And I think not, I’m fine, they love me, I’m perfect… I grew up with a lot of love, I never lacked for anything, the truth is that at home I was always the center because since I was a little girl, that’s how it was to sing and dance everywhere and electric and super energetic, and my mom always took her to the auditions, on tour with my mom… I had a beautiful childhood, but it’s what I kicked, it was this situation, it’s my wound of abandonment. In 2019 this whole family began to appear, my brothers, my father, when I started ‘Falling in love’, it’s like all this came to light, I had to work on it, I was not prepared and little by little with tools, with a family constellation, With therapy, with psychologists, with a lot of things, at one point I said: “Ok, here is something that has to be faced.”
Because that part, that I did not want to see, I saw reflected in my relationships, they did not last, how I could project certain fears that I had unresolved in couples, that was hard work, I thank my 2 spiritual teachers, who They were my 2 partners, who have had to go through the whole process, one when he is hurt, and he does not know and how to solve everything that he has inside, he grabs it with the person in front of him, I always ask for their forgiveness, and I thank them for having taught me, and for having put up with all those moments. It really is a beautiful story, because from this rebirth of mine, at the moment when I wanted to shed light on that darkness, on what I have kicked for a long time, I began to stop comparing myself, I began to stop looking outside so that someone would accept me, give me love, I began to stop feeling that people were going to abandon me, because I came with an idea of abandonment, a very hard job, but I understood that I am worthy of love, that we all are, I have never lacked that, I honor my mom and always, in fact my house is full of plants, in honor of her, and it’s like that aspect of feeling undeserving of love has been healed.
“Did you get to know her?”
Vanesa Leiro: No, I didn’t get to know her because she passed away about 6 years ago, but luckily when I start with all this change, this search for self-discovery of myself, I work a lot with energy, so there are some connections and there is a way of communicating to myself that it has nothing to do with the physical and with the tangible, in fact this project that I am already there creating, is a seed project, but I know it is very important because it comes from the heart, it has led me to that as to have communications beyond this plane, and it is very nice because at some point, we are all going to meet again, and it is also nice to understand those people who are no longer on this plane, that one can also have communication, and can honor it of many ways.
-We talked a lot about your ‘seed’ project, what is it about?
Vanesa Leiro: This project was born from a symbolic death, from an identity that I really had before and the rebirth of the person I am now, who I am now is crazy because La Leiro was, in fact I tattooed it just because, because it has been an experience and a stage in my life that I don’t want to forget, that has marked me a lot, but now the project is called ‘Bailando Las Emociones’, this project has me very excited, it has moved me, because I consider that it is the way more authentic in which I can demonstrate, share and contribute to the collective. For a long time it was like being well linked to music and acting and dancing, but I felt like I needed to give that closure or that concept of being able to share it with people, from the place where I can help, where I can share my experience, that people can open up.
They are different scenarios that I am going to alternate, that I am going to try as I feel, but it has a lot to do with live music, with percussion, music of course has to be there for the vibration, to feel, moving… ‘Dancing the Emotions’, is as the title says, the project is to be able to activate all these things that we have inside, which are sometimes mutilated or this is for later, I have many things to do and I can’t take care of myself … This is the space that we are going to share to really listen, listen to what is happening, what parts of the body can hurt or where we feel that there is a contracted emotion, and begin to level them through dance, Through, I am going to start working a little from the experience that I have with capoeira, with Afro music, with yoga, and everything that has to do with this holistic spiritual world, which also has a lot to do with readings, there will be others people too…
It is an association of people, I am not going to do this alone, beautiful people who have now integrated into this beautiful project, who are specialists, who contribute a lot on a creative or visual level, and I am really looking forward to giving it to know.
What do you say to the public that today is discovering this new Vanesa, the one that was hidden inside La Leiro?
Vanesa Leiro: Simply, feeling is a very nice gift that human beings do not have, feeling anguish, feeling pain, feeling joy, feeling the emotion of seeing the happiness of others, sometimes we reserve ourselves and limit ourselves to to feel, because it is always the duty to be, the duty to be because of what my parents were, the duty to be because of what society says, the duty to be because of how I have to see myself, and that is a very long stretch, it seems to us more and more difficult to feel, what I really want to feel, who I am, how I feel, beyond everything external, like turn that off a bit, turn off the phone, turn off the lights, turn off everything, and go inside … The best message I could give is what helped me, what transformed me, and I continue in this because it doesn’t stop, I continue in this search, in this beautiful self-discovery.
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