disturbing-writings-from-a-woman-murdered-by-her-husband-in-florida:-“i-wanted-to-gouge-out-his-eyes”Disturbing writings from a woman murdered by her husband in Florida: “I wanted to gouge out his eyes”
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By Luis De Jesus

08 Apr 2024, 19:41 PM EDT

A documentary published by Telemundo on April 4 — which includes the first public statements of Derek Medina, the man who shot and killed his wife in 2013 in Florida — shows some of the disturbing thoughts that the victim Jennifer Alfonso left captured in a notebook that titled The diary of a demented woman. Their lines confirm that they had a toxic relationship.

“I feel uncontrollably jealous, like wanting to murder. My blood boiled and I wanted to rip his eyes out of their sockets,” Alfonso expressed on one of the pages. And, according to Medina, this happened after his wife accused him of looking at another woman.

“I don’t know if you’ve read the diary, but she had a diary called Diary of a demented woman. “She accused me of looking at another woman, and she felt as if she wanted to tear out my eyes, to the point of murdering me,” the man, of Latin origin, told Telemundo through a phone call from a Florida Department of Corrections institution.

Derek, sentenced to life in prison, denied cheating on his wife.

The notebook also read: “I love him, I just wish we had better ways to show it. When we love each other it’s great, but when we hate each other, WE HATE OURSELVES.”

Derek Medina speaks on his own behalf during his sentencing hearing in Miami on Friday, February 5, 2016. Photo: Walter Michot / The Miami Herald via AP

“Derek told me I’m never happy for him in anything”; “I’ve had my fair share of crazy moments, like when I thought he was having an affair. He didn’t even do anything out of the ordinary. He was just being Derek,” two other snippets point out.

Carolyn Anderson, Jennifer Alfonso’s mother, said she did not know that her daughter and Derek fought frequently. “I don’t know if I believe it yet; “She never came to my house in purple or anything like that,” she said.

And he justified the victim’s writings: “A person’s diary is where one vents, and writes all the things from their heart, what they are feeling, no matter who they are. We all have happy moments and very dark and ugly moments and there are people who when they write those things they let off steam and it makes them feel better.”

Anderson acknowledged that her daughter was very jealous of her husband and that she did not even want him to talk to other women, an attitude that she considered normal.

“When you love someone, you don’t want them to talk to another person, because they are going to be deceiving you. I don’t know if he cheated on her with someone, I have no idea about that,” she expressed.

“My daughter was a waitress and he was someone who always asked about her; She served him her food, she was a very pretty girl and he conquered her. She fell in love with Derek and he with her. “I think they loved each other,” Anderson said.

Keep reading:
• He stabbed his wife and his little son: 10 questions and answers about the horrendous crime in Florida
• The latest in the Derek Rosa case: judge questions prosecutors for not handing over all the evidence to lawyers
• He spoke Hispanic who murdered his wife and published the photo of the body on Facebook: “I am not a monster”

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